By: Kyndra J. 


I can't swim

But yet I find myself in the sea

Surrounded by the waters of my guilt and how you used to hold me

How you knew what to do and how to do it

But now I’m drowning 

Drowning yet again tears that are being scattered 

and buried by the salty water covering my face in a rush

My chest feeling heavy going down faster

Every blink 

Drowning and crying with the tears being separated by the salt instead sticking to my face

Drowning and hurting crying and dying

How I wish I could swim in this moment

Or drown quickly enough to not feel this pressure on my chest

To not cry and drown in my guilt

The sea becoming a lake the lake becoming a river 

Slowly become smaller 

Soon enough my lungs reach air

A deep inhale of the sweet oxygen reuniting with my lungs

The air hugging my tongue

Water beneath me still on the sea not a river nor lake 

A sea I’m floating and I’m breathing fine 

I’m at peace with your touch your voice and you heart

I’m floating above with the air reaching my lungs every breathe 

I’ve found my peace of loving you and not drowning

Nor swimming


But



……Floating

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